Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
Purchasable with gift card
name your price
about
So I made this instrumental over a month ago, back on the 6th of April. I had the idea to sample one of my favourite video game soundtracks of all time, Silent Hill 3. Sure, I'll admit I've never played the game itself, but I'm very familiar with its soundtrack.
I had a listen to each track and ultimately decided on 'Never Forgive Me, Never Forget Me'. I then built a typical trap drum pattern and 808 over the top of the sample, which I had slowed down to 100 bpm.
After I was done and exported it, it sat on my iTunes, waiting to be used. Then on the 9th of June, I got inspired to write some lyrics and recorded some vocals for the song in question, dealing with some insecurities and worries of mine. I felt that such a dark and haunting sounding instrumental would be best suited for subject matter like that.
lyrics
[Verse 1]
Darkness in the mind, givin' me a fright
Like I'm walkin' home all alone at night.
Am I paranoid? Or am I justified?
Will my mind's worries, only adjust in time?
Got these dark thoughts, they're so intrusive,
And they wonder at times why I'm reclusive.
Why I don't go out unless I'm invited,
Despite the night life lookin' so vibrant.
My mind is a temple with gold all about,
But at times, it becomes a haunted house.
Endless 'what ifs' flowing through my mind state,
Stuck inside my head, leavin' me so irate.
Thoughts about my present, thoughts about my future,
Thoughts I maybe need to educate like a tutor.
Troubling thoughts inside like it's a disorder,
Makes me worried 'bout what's around the corner.
[Hook]
But tell me what do I know now?
I wish my mind turns to a ghost town.
Where all my bad thoughts go to fade away,
So I can shine bright like a sunny day.
I said what do I know now?
I wish my mind turns to a ghost town.
Where all my bad thoughts go to fade away,
So I can shine bright like a sunny day.
[Verse 2]
If I list every thought within a long day,
Of all the things that rub me the wrong way.
Then I'd probably be here for hours,
So let me speak the ones the most sour:
Haunted inside by my fears of failure.
Not bein' rewarded, despite my capers,
Doin' everything I can just to be better,
But never good enough, despite my best efforts.
What if I grow old, being unhappy?
What if I grow bitter and get snappy?
What if I turn away all those that I love?
What if they walk away when they had enough?
What if I never change despite the steps I took
All of those changes, I had never looked?
Those are just a few things that I think about,
That come into my head and bring my mood down.
[Hook]
credits
released June 25, 2023
Writing: Jack Rootes
Vocals: Jack Rootes
Production: Terrence Jameson
Sample credits:
Contains samples of 'Never Forgive Me, Never Forget Me' (Silent Hill 3 OST) by Akira Yamaoka.
